Thank you, God!

Dear God,

Thank you for having mercy on us! Thank you for creating this little miracle and allowing us to have this little miracle! 

Lord, I know all the obstacles are temporary tests of our faith in You. We will continue to trust in You for You are always here with us! Be not afraid for everything is possible with God! 

I wanna thank You again for blessing and protecting our little one! 

Almighty Father, I pray that You will continue to bless and protect our little miracle and bless us to have a safe, smooth, normal, viable pregnancy all the way!

I love You so much, Lord!

Amen! 

給寶寶的日記第二十二篇

寶寶：

今天媽媽很開心喔！因為你很乖，一直都有在聽媽媽的話。你今天的表現真的很棒喔！不愧是媽媽的好孩子耶！上帝也幫了我們不少的忙喔！上帝一直都有在照顧你、保佑你、守護著你，讓你很安全地在媽媽的子宮裡面成長。我們一定要感謝上帝一直在保護著你，知不知道？

因為根據醫生的推斷，你只有五個星期又三天大，暫時還看不到你的心跳。醫生要媽媽下個星期三回去再做掃描，到時你一定要讓醫生看到你強而有力的心跳喔！這也是你跟醫生、媽媽和爸爸說＂嗨＂的方式喔！

寶貝，你是上帝帶給爸爸和媽媽的奇蹟！撐住，千千萬萬不要放手喔！我們下個星期三見咯！：）

給寶寶的日記第二十一篇

寶寶：

你們還在嗎？那天是媽媽的錯！完完全全都是媽媽的錯。媽媽真的很後悔為甚麼那天要那樣做。寶寶，你們原諒媽媽，好不好？

爸爸和媽媽是很期待你們的到來的。我們等了你們三年！真的好不容易等到你們了，現在有又很害怕失去你們，因為一些數據對你們很不利。所以如果你們要在爸爸和媽媽身邊的活，一定不能放手，知道嗎？

這個星期五的掃描，一定要出現在媽媽的子宮裡面，大聲的跟媽媽、爸爸和醫生說＂嗨＂喔！你們要在媽媽的子宮裡面才能健健康康的成長。

God, I'm Sorry!

Dear God,

I've truly sinned through my own thoughts and actions on 13 March and 17 March that have resulted in today's plight.

I'm truly sorry and Lord, have mercy on me and please give me another chance to see my baby/babies with flickering heartbeats on 28 March.

Father, I don't want to lose my baby/babies for I've waited very long for them. I know I was at fault for not being careful and gave in to temptation. I want to redeem myself and I promise I will not sin again. God, please don't take my baby/babies away. Please continue to let this pregnancy to be a normal and viable one! 

I promise I will be a good mama if You are willing to let me continue to have this pregnancy.

Lord, have mercy on me and hear my prayers! Amen!

給寶寶的日記第二十篇

親愛的寶寶：

上個星期，你們真的是把媽媽給嚇壞了。自從媽媽知道自己懷孕了，爸爸和媽媽真的很開心！因為我們真的等了你們很久！

可是偏偏媽媽一直在流血。寶寶，你們要生長在媽媽的子宮裡面，知不知道？不可以跑到其他地方去，知不知道？上個星期，媽媽還住院了。

寶寶，不要讓媽媽擔心，好不好？答應媽媽，這個星期五在做掃描的時候，一定要出現在媽媽的子宮裡面跟媽媽說聲＂嗨＂喔！

媽媽也一直跟上帝禱告，請求上帝一定要保佑你們好好的！

寶寶，你們要加油到底，好不好？就算現在局勢看起來並不是很妙，但是媽媽堅信你們一定會在媽媽的子宮裡面出現！

寶寶，加油！加油！加油！

18dp2dt to 22dp2dt

18dp2dt (17 March):

Went to KKH to redo my blood test. Got the result and the HCG was at 1015.1. My spotting went downhill with red blood at 9 pm. I had pain on the left side of my lower abdomen. I couldn't sleep with the pain and decided to go to KKH O&G on Tuesday 5 am.

19dp2dt (18 March):

When I reached KKH O&G, they gave me a painkiller jab to ease the pain. They sent me for ultrasound scan at 8.30 am. They saw 2 masses adjacent to my right and left ovary. They were not able to determine what they were. They had me admitted to KKH for further observations. I was on IV drip the whole day as instructed by Dr Tan as I might need to go for operation. They were suspecting that it could be an ectopic pregnancy. I was also given antibiotics that needed to be injected into the veins. Oh my, that was real painful! The abdomen pain seemed to have stopped and the bleeding seemed minimal throughout the whole day. I had the best sleep that night in the hospital ever since ET.

20dp2dt (19 March):

Early in the morning, a doctor came to take my blood for the test and oh my, it was the most painful one so far. At 9 am, Dr Tan came to see me and said that the HCG level had dropped. My heart kind of sank. He only commented that sometimes in a twins pregnancy, the HCG level does fluctuate and he didn't want to take it as the gospel truth that it meant that the pregnancy is no longer there. However, he didn't want to rule out the possiblities of a twins pregnancy, ectopic pregnancy, heterotopic pregnancy and missed miscarriage. 

21dp2dt (20 March):
Bleeding was very minimal. No abdominal pain. 

22dp2dt (21 March):
No bleeding and no abdominal pain. They took my blood again to test and my level went up to 1572.5 from 809.2. Dr Tan came to see me before I was discharged. He still didn't rule out the 4 possibilities and commented that an ultrasound scan will be able to tell. He also commented the rise in the HCG could be because we put in 2 embryos and they are independent. They secrete the hormones separately. 

My almighty God, please continue to bless my baby/babies and let this be a viable pregnancy for the next 10 months. Let my baby/babies show up in my uterus on the ultrasound scan on 28 March with flickering heartbeats. God, please make this happen! Lord, have mercy on us! In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit, we pray! Amen!

16dp2dt

I went to KKH O&G on Saturday morning at 3 am as I felt that my spotting got a little worse. I made a call to TMC as I was warned by Dr Zou that KKH usually will not give progesterone shot for additional support. However, TMC told us that it would be hard for them to administer the shot by their GP since I'm not their patient.

As expected, the doctor on duty at KKH did not want to give me the shot when I requested for it. He used a speculum to check my vaginal and commented that my cervix was not opened. He only instructed me to increase my oral progesterone to 3 times daily instead of 2 times daily.

I had cramps on the lower abdomen after lunch and on Saturday afternoon at around 5 plus, the amount of blood seen on the toilet paper was quite substantial and I had to callDr Zou for help. She recommended a gynae, Dr Michele Lee and asked me to go to TMC.

After I reached TMC, the nurse was very friendly, registered for me and brought me to lie down on the bed in the treatment room while she called Dr Lee. Dr Lee decided to come down and see me. So nice of her to come and see me on a Saturday night and when I'm not even her patient! :)

After she arrived, again she used the speculum to check my vaginL and commented that my cervix was not opened. She said the spotting could be due to the placenta is developing. She administered the progesterone shot for me and gave me her name card and said that if my blood test result doubles today and KKH still doesn't want to give any additional support, I can go to her clinic to see her.

I have been monitoring my spotting ever since the shot and it seems to get better.